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damigella ([personal profile] damigella) wrote2011-05-22 12:50 pm

Why? - Post ep for 7x23


Title: Why?
Summary and warning: Post Ep for S7 finale, based on spoilers.
Rating: general.
Word Count: 200.
Warning: Mentioned minor(!) character death.
Disclaimer: I don't own any of the House, MD characters, which is good since I tend to kill them.
Author's note: I wrote this now because I'll be too heartbroken after the finale.



It felt like déjà vu: the hospital room, the pain, Wilson in the recliner looking at him.

"Good afternoon, House."

"How's Rachel? And Cuddy?"

Wilson walked to the window and looked out in the sun. "Cuddy's fine. Physically. Rachel died at dawn in her arms."

He sat down on House's bed. "It wasn't your fault. It was an accident. Even Cuddy said so."

House breathed hard, as the numbers on the monitor slowly came back down. "She must hate me all the same. I'll resign, Wilson. She can't work with me."

"She was faster than you. She has accepted a long-standing offer in Seattle. She's emptying her office as we speak."

"I'll never see her again."

"No." Wilson didn't offer comforting words, nor criticism. He seemed to be as empty and drained as House felt himself to be: even his tears had stopped flowing.

"There will be changes in my life as well," Wilson added.

"Are you leaving, too? Or did they ask you to be interim Dean?"

"They did, and I refused. I resigned from Head of Oncology and asked to work reduced hours."

"Why?"

Wilson's left thumb traced the life line on House’s right palm. “For you.”

[identity profile] damigella-314.livejournal.com 2011-05-22 04:33 pm (UTC)(link)
I think having Rachel dying would be a very cheap way out (also like, imho, the way Cuddy came to foster her was completely wrong).

And of course it's harder for Wilson to sit near sick_and_heartbroken!house than near any dying patient. Which is why I make it happen so often in my fics. :-). I like suffering!wilson.

Thank you for commenting!

[identity profile] coconut-ice22.livejournal.com 2011-05-22 04:55 pm (UTC)(link)
There's probably a book's worth of stuff that can be written about how weird and not correct the way Cuddy went about adopting Rachel was.

Suffering!Wilson is so much fun, be he sick or being made to tend to the sick.

So, question for you, what makes Wilson suffer the most in your opinion?

[identity profile] pgrabia.livejournal.com 2011-05-22 05:15 pm (UTC)(link)
Watching House self-destruct.

[identity profile] damigella-314.livejournal.com 2011-05-22 05:18 pm (UTC)(link)
Yes. That. Better and quicker answer than mine.
I hope you will keep thinking about the collaborative fic idea. Pretty please.

[identity profile] damigella-314.livejournal.com 2011-05-22 05:17 pm (UTC)(link)
what makes Wilson suffer the most in your opinion?
House doing crazy, risky things like cannonballing from the fifth floor or excising tumors from his thigh in his bathtub. And having to be there and collect the pieces at the end of whatever mad thing House has done. I also hope it makes him suffer to think back of his own faults towards House, especially the throwing him out for Sam, but canon doesn't help much about that.

And I think the converse is also true. I think if someone wants to hurt House, making Wilson suffer is the way to go. At least that's the way I would go.

[identity profile] coconut-ice22.livejournal.com 2011-05-22 07:15 pm (UTC)(link)
So the guy who tried to shoot House, if he was doing it for revenge the more effective method would have been to shoot Wilson...

I also hope it makes him suffer to think back of his own faults towards House Wilson doing stuff that isn't always going to make House happy is part of why House loves him though, isn't it? If Wilson truly were a pushover would House admire him as much as he does?

[identity profile] damigella-314.livejournal.com 2011-05-22 07:32 pm (UTC)(link)
the guy who tried to shoot House
There's a lovely fic by [livejournal.com profile] mer_duff that expands on this concept much better than I ever can. Go read it if you haven't.

I wouldn't want Wilson to be a pushover, but sometimes he hurt House in ways I found unbelievable and OoC. Kicking out your best friend that you just bought an organ for, and that is supposed not to be alone for fear of relapses? That didn't make any sense at all, and imho was only there to pave the way for H/C. But it's canon, so I have to deal with it. Same for Wilson not making sure House is at least fine when he finds him passed out and vomiting in the Tritter arc.

Or Wilson forcing House to stay off Vicodin when he obviously needs painkillers. I think that withdrawing needed medical care is a severe form of violence, and that Wilson should be very sorry about it.

[identity profile] coconut-ice22.livejournal.com 2011-05-22 07:58 pm (UTC)(link)
Heh, well they are all good reasons for why Dark!Wilson fic exists to deal with these anomalies. Isn't there some sign that Wilson is more messed up than House, but he's able to hide it better, which in a way is what makes him more messed up than House?

One of the other Wilson anomalies they threw in to make H/C work -- where did Wilson disappear to in the second to last episode of season 5? he just let House drive off to the hospital to see Cuddy by himself and didn't check-up on him at all? If I had a friend who was acting like that I would have followed him to Cuddy.

The guy's admitted to hallucinating and you're letting him drive around town on his own, Wilson?

Ahh! I love mer_duff's fics! I have read that one, but it was a long time ago, thank you! Must go re-read now.

[identity profile] damigella-314.livejournal.com 2011-05-22 08:15 pm (UTC)(link)
"The guy's admitted to hallucinating and you're letting him drive around town on his own, Wilson?"
Exactly. I didn't know dark!wilson was supposed to be the way we deal with this :-).

And yes, Wilson's as messed up as House is, and better but not so much better at hiding it. I just wish we knew more about his background, but that again is what fanfic is for.

[identity profile] pgrabia.livejournal.com 2011-05-22 05:14 pm (UTC)(link)
You are a member at sick_Wilson, aren't you? If not, join up quick!